so I made it through February in one piece

:)

but now I feel like shit.
I was in SUCH a good mood earlier today.
I took a shower in the dark while I listened to Bon Iver, Rogue Wave, and Copeland. it was lovely to say the least.

I'm so lost right now.

I know school is not what I need to be doing right now, that northern California is not where I need to be, but I don't know what I DO need to do, nor where I DO need to be.

I have no motivation for anything. at all.

I've lost all drive I once had.

I just don't know anymore. I need someone, something, to put everything in perspective again, to give my life meaning.

I would like a friend please.