to you

I don't know exactly what I miss
is it you?
or is it love?

I miss having someone by my side

at school, at home, even across oceans

I knew you were always there

I miss having a best friend

all the laughs, the tears, the love

it all meant the world to me

most of all I miss the love

love between the closest of friends

that could talk about anything

deep or shallow, random or well thought out, stupid or insightful

anything, anything in the world

we were there for each other
through thick and thin
until the bitter end

but I'm still standing here

waiting for your return

return to normalcy, to growing up, to love

will I stand forever alone?

will someone come and take me away?

or will you come back and stand by my side

!

I've forgotten what it's like to have a best friend. :/

Mel and I learned the Soulja Boy dance today. it was great!

I really have to go to the bathroom.

I burned 123 calories in aerobics today.

I lost .2 lbs. in the past week.

I had a dream last night that anberlin was visiting me at my old house in Pittsburg.

I was talking to Joey when he randomly fell out of his chair.

Nick Cocozzella of Kill Paradise is wonderful.

he has 3 of my pictures in his Fan Art album on myspace.

and pictures w/ Talia and O too.

exitentialism - the original emo

that's Jessica Munger's definition of EXITENTIALISM.

Lasagna Man and I were listening to Straylight Run's "Exitentialism On Prom Night" today in drafting. I always forgot what "exitentialism" meant so I asked Mrs. Wilson, Jessica Munger, Amanda Lightfoot, Amber Gerspacher, and finally Mr. Ellison.

Ellison explained it the best I think, apart from Jessica's definition of course. like he explained the French peoples' deal after WWI and WWII and said they were "just existing". no feeling, just existing. rather depressing. but it's a good song.