the past three days: emotional fucking rollercoaster, mostly with A LOT of drops and loops and not a lot of upsk, so Friday night Becca, Maricela, and I went to Becca's bf Danny's house in Chico to party. we got there around 8 or so, and Danny's friends who could actually buy the alcohol didn't show up until like 9 I think. during the time of waiting we had some pretty great laughs. Danny's roomate David thought Maricela's name was "Martha" so I call her that now lol.
Me: Maricela, why are you so dirty?
Cela: Because I'm Mexican
so effing funny!!!
so then Danny's friends went out and bought beer, Jose Cuervo, and coconut rum. Becca, "Martha", and I started off with 'margaritas' that Becca made (she just poured some Jose Cuervo and margarita mix together and it tasted like freaking pickles). sick nasty to say the least. so then we put it all in the blender with some ice and it was better, but not much. then we did a few shots of Jose and rum. we watched the boys play a few rounds of beer pong which was entertaining and we hung out for awhile just chillin. oh, Martha and I made a rap video and sent it to Raven lmfao.
Wanna Cook some in the oven
Make a baby with some lovin'
we were talking about David Cook of course lol.
then Martha and I went out to fix our makeup and when we came back in Becca was already drunk b/c she had a done a few more shots while we were gone. then we played Flip Cup which was super freakin fun, but I still hate beer. so I think we played 3 rounds of that and our team got beat bad. but I think it was b/c we had 3 girls on our team that never drink beer and the other team had 3 guys who always drink beer, so it was unfair lol.
then we went out and hung out on the porch. btw, after the beer I was pretty much GONE. I remember trying to explain to everybody how beer reminded me of skunk.
k, so you know when you smell a skunk and you get that taste in your mouth? well, that's what beer tastes like
unfortunately or not, nobody agreed with me lol.
Elle called me at 11 b/c she was nearby and couldn't find the house or something so I gave the phone to Danny to tell her where to go. when she pulled up I ran out to her car and tackled her in the street hahahaha. then when I brought her up to the porch I was like "Everybody, this is Elnora, she's my best friend," and then I took her inside. I was like "Do some shots of this, then drink some beer and then you can have the rum." so she did a shot of Jose, and I think I did 1 or 2 myself, then I was like "Drink this" and held out a beer but she didn't want it and I was like "It'll get you gone, just drink it," but she didn't so I drank it for her instead. then I think we did some shots of rum but I'm not sure. I don't really remember much after that. but I remember I started crying saying "I don't want to be like my dad" and Elnora just kept saying "You're not your dad. You're not your dad." oh, and I also was crying saying "I hate that I like it! I hate that I like it!" and I remember I was hugging EVERYBODY. it was kind of funny. and at some point I was falling over by the fridge but Andrew held me up and did the weird karate bow thing and told me to do it and take a deep breath and was like "You feel better don't you?" and I was like "I do!!!" hahahaha.
then I think the last thing I remember was falling down a lot and falling down by the fridge.
next thing I knew I woke up in a bathtub at like 5:30 in the morning still COMPLETELY drunk. but it wasn't the same bathroom that I had used the night before so I was WAY confused. I looked down and saw I had scraped my ankle and I was like "WTF happened?" and then I felt I had a bandaid on my forehead and I was like "Seriously, WTF happened dude?" and then I started texting Elnora and Martha. (look at my last blog for texting convos.) Martha came into the bathroom and I don't even know what we talked about but I know we both had to pee so she went to the other bathroom and I stayed in that one. but there was no toilet paper so I had to wait until Martha got back so I could go get some toilet paper. then we both went out on the porch to hang w/ Elle and Nathan. at some point Elnora told me to roll around on the grass, so I did hahaha. we were hanging out with them when Martha and I got thirsty so we went in the kitchen to get some water. I went to refill my cup a couple of times, and both times I did, I took a swig of rum. smart? not so much. then Martha really wanted some apple juice so we walked to the nearest gas station and got some apple juice and I got a Perrier lol. when we got back Nathan asked what we got and I told him "Apple juice and water" and he was like "Why did you buy water?" and I was like "It's sparkling water" lmao.
then I was lying on the porch thinking about suicide and I almost divulged my darkest secret I think, I think I might've actually told them, but idk. so we were talking about suicide and Martha was like "Candace, don't ever kill yourself, you're too cool," and my reply was "Okay :)" ahahhaa. then Martha went inside to lie on the couch thing and I was lying on the floor and she said something so I whipped my head up and smacked the back of my head on the wood part of the couch. it hurt really bad. then when Nathan came in I went outside and collapsed on top of Elnora lol. then when Nathan came back out he was like "I hate to take your blanket away, but I'm leaving. It was nice meeting you guys." so he left and Elnora went to the bathroom, and she left soon after that and I just stayed on the couch outside. I'm not entirely sure if I went to sleep or not, but Andrew came out and asked how I was feeling and I was like "Tired. And cold," and he was like "You're cold?"
"Mhmm"
"Okay, hold on," and he went inside and got me a blanket. he was amazing. apparently he was the one that put the pillow in the bathtub for me lol.
later on when we were all up I asked what happened and apparently I threw up EVERYWHERE and I hit my head on the fridge and I was bleeding EVERYWHERE too. I think they Elnora was the only one that saw me hit my head and she went to get Danny. he told me when he saw me my face was just COVERED in blood and I was lying in my own puke and it was just BAD. he said he almost called 911 b/c I wouldn't stop bleeding. thankfully he didn't. and apparently everybody was taking pictures and crap lol. and 4 guys ended up carrying me into the bathtub around 1 or so I think they said. and Elnora said that at one point I went to the bathroom and I was still anal about washing my hands lmao. I don't remember that AT ALL. The last things I remember were me against the fridge and Nathan's friend was like "Are you okay?" and I was like "Yeahhh, I'm fiiiine" (ha!) and me saying 'fuck' a lot and Elnora was like "Well, there's one thing on your mind" and I was like "I don'wanna'ave sex" lmfao! wow, go me.
I think that's about it. oh, at some point the cops came and Martha ran inside lmfao. I was already in the bathtub at that point lol. oh, and I remember at some point I was trying to go outside and Elnora was smoking but she didn't want me to see her or something.
apparently she smoked A LOT and that reallllllllllly pissed me off to no end. :/
so, that was the first time I've ever been drunk. and I wasn't completely sober by the time I went to bed last night at like 2 or 3. and I woke up still kind of out of it. yeah. oh, and everybody's minds were boggled because I didn't have a headache the next day. not at all. Danny was like "If not from the alcohol, I would think you would have one from hitting your head." but I didn't, at all.
