is it stupid that all I'd really like to do is lie next to you and talk all night?

to answer my own question, yes, it is.
but you're beautiful and don't even realize it. you don't give yourself enough credit.

I think that there will always be a part of me that likes the whole idea of unrequited love and it's like I can describe it, but I can't actually pinpoint the reason. it kind of makes some sort of sense in my mind, but not in reality.

and I also like the idea of someone being broken and putting them back together. I think I like it for selfish reasons though. to be able to say that I helped them, that I was the one that fixed them. but at the same time, I want them to be whole again, to be happy, truly happy.

I also have this stupid fantasy that when I meet someone I'll just know that they're the one. but I have this other fantasy that kind of contradicts the previous one: that I'm good friends with someone for a long time and then one day we just realize that we're in love with each other.

my thoughts are jumbled and incoherent.