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crap, what was I going to say?
I have no idea.

I love what I do. I hate going to school.

oh! I remember! in regards to my last post, this might be a decent February afterall. I'm not sure yet though.

and, in all honesty (I don't mean to be cocky), I would love to have a friend like me. someone that will just listen and try and help me if I need it. someone that no matter what else is going on, I can just tell them what's wrong. but I can't do that. first off, I don't really share much, and secondly I feel bad when I talk about myself. I don't know, it's complicated. and it's not like I can talk to anyone about this even. oh whatever. but I do want a best friend. I went for years without one, then all of a sudden I had like 50, and now I'm back down to zero. I mean I have best friends, just none of them live here anymore. I want a best friend that I hang out with all the time and stuff.

I love Olivia :D
I want to move away. far away. out of this God forsaken state.
I'm absolutely exhausted and I have to get up in less than 6 hours.
I have so much to say.

sometimes I feel guilty for not having a close relationship with my parents, but, well I don't know.