I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue.

apparently it's finally over.

I don't understand why it's hitting you now. it doesn't make sense, it all comes "crashing down" months after I said everything. it's all irrelevant now.

I tell you to let it go. you get offended and call me selfish.

at least I'm not as selfish as I used to be, or as selfish as you.

and I don't think you understand where I'm coming from in regards to my senior project.

it's my project and I want it to be as great as it can be. but I don't think you realize that.

then you tell me this:

"just its hard for me, cause your feelings change so drastically and so much.

like one day your mad at me, then like your mad at everyone, and you get all depressed and I feel like I HAVE to be there for you, but then once I am your better and there's no reason for me anymore."

did you ever think that maybe I was better when you were around because I knew someone cared?

and then you would leave again because "there's no reason for [you] anymore," and the whole cycle would start over.

and this:

"I just can't be your friend.

you get hurt too easily and I can't be worrying all the time about that.

and I know you want me as more than I can give you.

its just not in my capability to do."

this makes me wonder if you ever really were my friend.

if you feel like you have to be there for me, and you "don't have time to be worrying" about me anymore, then what's the point?

you shouldn't feel like you have to do something for a friend because if you don't they'll be hurt, you should do it because you actually care.

which it's apparent now you don't.

and I wonder if you ever really did.

but this is your life. I'm over it.

you'll have to deal with the consequences of your actions one day.

and I just want you to know, I'll always be here.

I can't turn my back on someone I've loved.