I sleep so I don't have to feel

sleeping is the one thing I can do right. it's kind of hard to mess up.
sometimes I feel it's the only thing I can ever do right.
I sleep long, I sleep hard, and I have intense dreams to prove it.
crazy, long, involved, detailed dreams.
sleeping is what I do best. it's what I look forward to at the end of the day, just in order to escape from reality for awhile.
not that my reality is all that bad, but the other side of my looking glass is much nicer.
if I could, all I would ever do is sleep. reality just bores me (and sometimes angers and depresses me) to tears.
I still haven't found my reason for waking, let alone living.
in the genius words of one of my personal heroes, Stephen Christian, "there's more to living than being alive," and all I'm doing right now is existing.
that needs to change.
ASAP.